I do have ambition and I know I should have kept the appointment but the temptation to stay in bed this morning was overpowering. It just seemed like the right choice at the time. Besides, my decision didn’t really impact anyone, not the other party anyway …
The other party?
I had thought the ignored appointment will keep until ‘next time.’ They are my friends, I can pick up the business when we next meet. Anyway, they know I’ve a tendency to lie in from time to time …
Next morning was difficult. I’d had a sense of feeling ‘down.’ I’d become distracted by guilt, felt depression moving over me. The realisation that I’d let friends down the morning beforehand had created a feeling of being ‘lost.’
I could simply ignore it (this feeling,) but how? This is not ambition, it is the alternative, it is what I have become… I am a disappointment to myself.
A disappointment.
We are what we practice.
I do have ambition and I am determined to initiate change. What is it I want for myself? Is it the same for my fledgling business? How can I attain the level of credibility (for both) that I aspire to.
Change. I need to change my habits. I know people can help me – those with a level of commitment that I have yet to experience. I must learn from them, listen and learn to develop and to initiate change.
If I do not change then I know I shall continue to disappoint others, myself and my sense of hopelessness shall prevail.
Positive thoughts lead to positive actions.
A small adjustment to my lifestyle and a change in habit have helped. I am engaging people who are in charge of their destination who in turn offer me my own direction. This is a path to becoming a thought leader within my own space – as opposed to a follower, driven by what others perceive me to be.
I do understand that this is the path. It is achievable through positive people, personal benchmarking …
Practice change to realise there is a move from apathy to ambition.
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